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11th April 2016, group meditation – by Voxin

When we were ready in meditative state, just as the last time, in Ostara post , Tala created circle with pillars and we were to find a path where would we go. At North side, I’ve seen the same town I was before and I have decided not to go there this time. I saw two more paths. One led to a forest, common forest. Other one to the similar forest, but trees were glowing like a deep water luminescent jelly fish. I took that one and soon arrived to a small round lake.the_secret_lake_by_chris_karbach-d6bt52c_640

Lake was dark, but glowing beautiful likeit was made of a million stars and crystals. Those dots were emitting and reflecting light and the trees around it were glowing too in its dim bluish light reflections. Cracking in nearby tree branches revealed Artemis, smiling back at me and disappearing in the dark. Further along, Hecate was there, in her Mother appearance with her black dog and her wooden staff with silver crescent moon at the top, facing upwards. Then, on the opposite side of me, there were a blonde maiden, in her seventeens, dressed in white. She was calling to me silently and I slowly came around, passing beside Hecate who let me pass with no effort.

When I arrived near blonde maiden, she caressed my hair and I set down. She turned into a golden glowing nymph and were putting me to sleep by caressing my hair. I have been told that I really stated snoring. Next I remember, Hecate was above me, waking me and taking my hand and leading me away. Nymph was smiling and slowly disappeared in the dark. I thanked Hecate and was slowly walked back. Halfway there I met my beloved and we came back to the circle together. Then I slowly came out of meditation and back to the attic.

Ostara, 19th March 2016 – by Voxin

Four of us were sitting around the altar, just after we have finished Ostara ritual and gave our thanks to the gods, sun, moon and earth.
Tala wanted somewhat deeper meditation with a goal for each of us to try to foresee year ahead. When we were ready in meditative state everyone already on other plane, she created a circle with four glowing stone pillars. One in each of the major directions, then four more, tiny ones between them. We were to choose our path out of multiple surrounding that circle.

This time, I had the most simple and most vivid vision in many months. Like I was watching a full HD movie. In that vision, I saw only one path downwards to the nearby medieval town, surrounded by a stone wall. As I as approaching, I passed over a bridge that was high over a stream where few creepy zombie-like creatures were drowning and in their last strengths were trying to get out. I felt sorry for them. Just before the (open) gate, path led me down to the left to the small round one-room building that was made out of the stone and attached to the town wall. There were a door and a lit torch beside it.

I have entered the room, which was entirely of gold, walls covered with Egyptian hieroglyphs and drawings. There were Seth, Anubis, Osiris, Isis and Apis. I wasn’t afraid at all, in fact, I had a feeling of a happiness, as I have met my brethren. I had a feeling of richness and as that room was mine, given by them. Anubis put his hand on my shoulder. I smiled. Then I tried to go out but Osiris held me there for a moment, for someone else that was passing outside cannot see from where I am exiting. I thanked and went out.

Just before I climbed up that path to the town gate, I met Cerridwen. She was pointing with her finger to my belt, where a flask with a potion, that she gave me months ago in other meditation, was hanging. I took a sip and I grew tall. So tall that I was hundreds feet tall. Town below my feet was small. I saw many other towns glowing in the night. There was a terminator line, dividing day on the right side and night on the right. On day side, I saw many spots in the forest, creeks and clearings bathing in a morning sunlight, butterflies, rabbits, bucks and life in general. It was very beautiful. On the left hand side, I saw clearings and surrounding forests, moonlight, calmness, insects buzzing in the night. Also very calming view. I was very happy.

Potion effect wore off and I came back to my original size. I decided to go back to that circle that Tala created. As I set to wait for others, day dawned slowly and I was enjoying morning colours. I was looking around and behind my back, I saw a village center, that village where we usually do our thingies. I passed there and there was Druantia in her green dress, hugged me and tapped on the shoulder. I understood that as “well done”. She didn’t speak, she smiled and left. I went to my hut, took a bath. Above fireplace I saw Thurisaz rune, that changed slowly into Mannaz rune. Then I slowly went back to the village center and passed through portal that led me back to the circle. Then others arrived and we gone back to the room out of meditation.

Snow moon, 22nd

Yesterday’s full moon ritual was a strange one, for me at least. Five of us gathered at Tala’s attic and after standard circle opening and some initial relaxing meditation we began. I forgot my reading glasses at home, but I think Full moon is to be led by women, so Tala took over. Women usually have more intense manifestations in Goddesses invocations.

During the rites, my usual thing is to see Goddess appear in front of me, bathing me in the light. This time, however, she circled around me like ghost, in all of her light and beauty, gently smiling at me. After a few circles she entered me and I felt chill and got goosebumps all over my skin. Light irradiated from her, in me, all over the attic. In that time, Tala was finishing Drawing down the Moon part, and I saw moon diving into the water on the horizon. I felt like I need to go to the water.

When we finished, I asked Tala to bring me down to the water. Not usual element meditation where one of the element shapes pops-up, but directly, to the water. She led me to the lake over the forest paths uphill outside our ‘village’. When I came to the lake, I walked slowly in and dived deep down. I saw bluish glow and approached. There was a stone table with two pillars and a drawer below it. There was a mirror on the table that irradiated light. I opened a drawer and found a stone egg. Egg was too heavy and I could not swim up with it. Behind, I saw a wraith. My last water meditation didn’t go quite nice being surrounded by wraiths, so I was weary, but this one was at distance. Just as she was there to make sure I do what was to be done. I looked at the egg, saw carved lines, but only in the mirror I could read them. It was written “Marcus”. Actually, kind a Roman way: “MARCVS”.

Egg crumbled to the pebbles and I started swimming up the surface. Went out, but could not find the path down for some moments. I looked around and found a small strawberry. As I approached to pick it up, I saw path and started going down, but as everything was wet, I slipped, fell to my back and had a bumpy slide down the hill. I ended up back in the village and from there, I came back.

Still need to reflect on what I saw and discover the meaning. I am sure it will come in time.

Sand of Alexandria

Son of Jupiter, kicked out of Bacchus’ inn,
Journey to the Orion and back,
To the hands of Hator, daughter of Ra,
Fury of the Pantheon

Blood and pain, love and gain,
Like pair of stars entangled in the dance of death,
Sword and chain, mortals slain,
Lustful dance to the arms of Seth.

Terrifying was revenge of Mars,
Lightning strikes to the people and land,
They feared not journey to the stars,
Sword, snake and Alexandrian blood-soaked sand.

 

Samhein @31st Oct. 2015

I was reading work diaries and decided to publish diary of last year’s Samhein, as nothing worth writing happened since new year.

Samhein, Oct 31st 2015 around 21h, moon 65% waning. Belgrade, Kosutnjak forest.
Participants: Voxin, Tala, apprentice “JJ” – first time with us. I will pass journal entries ‘as is’, and here they are.

Voxin’s entry:
Feeling strong energy. I made strong circle so nothing can pass in or out except energy of eleme2015-10-31 21.45.54nts though the ground. I grounded myself pretty good by sitting and leaning on my both hands on the ground. Palms were buried in fallen leaves and dirt. Energy flow was fantastic. I saw my father outside the circle. He was my age. Had his brown coat hanging on his finger on the shoulder, falling back. Beside him, there was a viking. He had long and dirty blond hair, he had horned helmet and short beard and was in full war gear, all with shield and axe. Had green squared kilt. I knew he was one of my ancestors.
There was also some kind of demon there, but lesser one – weak. More like a jester then real menace. Behind me was an old lady dressed in black. I could not see her face. She wasn’t radiating negativity of any kind.
When we finished work, I felt a need to thank to each one which I did. It was awesome experience. Tala’s and JJ’s energies were boosting pretty good. I felt very very good.

Tala’s entry:
Circle was cast and I left candle at each world direction. JJ left a flower beside each candle. Gratitude to God and Goddess, some old thoughts of gratitude have returned and I felt it intensely. Cleansing and Chackras – Cleansing was on few planes at the same time. JJ was shining 😀 It was interesting to feel how I became conscious of each one of the elements. Earth, footsteps in the distance as one walks by, I let him pass. Gusting wind has blown pretty strong and I waited for it to come, get stronger and leave. Fire in that moment has become stronger. I felt my palms burning. I thought if I turn them toward up that light would shine out. I saw the ones who were more distant from the edge of the circle. I realized my mother was here but she was standing aside. Water wasn’t cold. Warm drizzle that carries all.
I saw them around, some who didn’t want to be too intrusive were standing behind, quiet. Others were in front, mostly to the west and north. That one evil spirit was there, but not willing to provoke or try anything. Grandpa came and set at north side on a fallen tree log. Happy and shining, but with some tiny ray of sadness in his eyes. Around him I saw many small children, lost, some only 2-3 years old. Like he was dragging them with him. Asked me how I am, told me that he is happy that I’m free, that he didn’t like my ex. Told me that he is glad I am finally healthy. Children were standing in between, looking at me. I told them to go with him. That fell really tough on me.
We offered bread and wine to all sides. Gratitude from them also. There were old warriors from this land, torn shoes and old wool hats. Some with colorful bags, stained. Two old ladies to the southwest, one in black was moving to the west, other was mostly standing in one place, but was smiling, like she wasn’t sure that she is not alive. I had urge to say something, but I do not remember if I did or just whispered. I called Hecate to lead them where they belong and to offer them peace. Great feeling of happiness and fullness after this. Smell of forest, energy that we gained through meditation. Wonderful feeling.

 

December’s New moon @home

It was a cold and misty night. Moon was nowhere in sight. Since my counterpart, High Priestess Tala had things to do, we agreed that everyone will do own part at own time, instead of our coven grounds – her “Attic of the awoken”.

My beloved creature, and apprentice at the same time, arrived late so I had to prepare altar in a rush to catch the night before it ends at midnight. Felt like Cinderella a bit except there was no pumpkin coach to take me somewhere.
Continue reading December’s New moon @home